Yes, I put that word in all caps on purpose.  I have a genuine love and devotion for carbs!  If you could see my face, you would see that dreamy look of devotion when a girl first falls in love with a boy.  Let me make this clear…  When I talk about carbs, I am not referring to fresh fruit, veggies, and whole grains.  I am talking about bread, wine, and sweets.  I would not get all dreamy over a piece of broccoli!  Give me a nice glass of red wine, some warm sourdough bread, and a plate of herb infused olive oil.  I could live on that!  Seriously!

Unfortunately, my diet plan is not working for me.   Crap!  Crap!  Crap!  I really tried!  I thought that perhaps my body is different than other people’s bodies.  That my body CRAVES these things means my body NEEDS these things.  Right?  Anyone?  Why the hell can’t I crave broccoli?

I have a feeling that I can’t blame my continued inability to lose weight on my imbalanced hormones anymore.  I have a feeling that I am going to have to LEARN to crave broccoli.  I have a feeling that a temper tantrum is coming on.

I think I have tried about all of the mainstream diets out there.  I know what DOESN’T work.  I know that I can’t starve myself because I become a very cranky Maniac.  I know that I can’t completely give up my wine and bread because once again, cranky Maniac.

I have a sneaking suspicion that for me to be completely balanced, I need to balance my food choices as well as my hormones. 

Isn’t it nice that I am having this epiphany right before the holidays? 

Hugs to you!



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  • Pudden

    Hi Monica:

    I have struggled with this menogain now for over two years. All of a sudden I went from wearing string bikinis in my mid forties to wishing the string was 5 feet wide to cover the sudden blobs hanging out everywhere! Needless to say, I have not even worn a bathing suite since this started, neither string nor 9 feet of material…geeze… I say that, to say this:

    I don’t think you are dreaming. I think you are deifintely feeling better :-). I have been on hormones with Dr. T. for about 3 months now and I could not feel better! My weight is still somewhat of an issue…but slowly…ever so slowly….I see just a little progress. I’ve lost about 4 pounds now. So, hold on…I really think you are seeing progress…you are NOT dreaming!

    Dr. T. told me I should continue to feel better….My comment was, “…I have no idea how I could feel any better! I feel like a million dollars EVERY single day now…” I guess I could feel like five million? Anywho…You are NOT DREAMING :-).

    One thing I wanted to share with you is a new routine I’ve just begun that is helping me to form a different body! I just started the 30 Day Shred by Jillian Michaels of the Biggest Loser. It’s a dvd and you can get it most anywhere, Walmart, Amazon, etc. I am the facilities coordinator for a county wellness center and I implemented it into a fitness competition. It is working nicely. It’s only 30 minutes; It progresses into three different levels (as you progress) and it’s a circuit program so it’s interesting and fun! NOT BORING.

    I started the dvd in mid October. I usually do it five days a week minimum. It’s designed to do every day. So far I’ve lost 4 pounds, and 3% body fat. I’m only 5 ft 2 and I weigh 137, so I don’t have a huge amount to lose. But I thought that was wonderful progress. (I did weigh about 115 when the menogain began). I have tried many programs to no avail. Maybe it’s her program and maybe it’s just that my hormones are kicking in and helping my body to respond. Who knows…but I’ve been trying for over 24 months to lose this fat and it is finally coming off! I’m sold!

    Best wishes,

    Pudden 🙂

  • Kim Whelan

    Monica… I had the weight creep in. I finally realized I had to re-establish my relationship with food. I joined weight watchers on line and learned moderation. Of course moderation seemed like torture! The one thing I did learn was I am a carb addict. I think I actually might have had carb withdrawel. Of course I am talking about the carbs you love too. But slowly WW did work because I could have my wine, my bread. I lost about 11 pounds in about 4 months. Of course I had the plus of Jazzercise. Not only did that provide a good work out but it also gave me more points.

    On a side note… I have slid back to my addictive behavior and the pounds are coming back. 🙁 Must go back!!!

  • Monica

    Hi Pudden!

    I have that DVD! I will be honest though, it KILLS my knees! I do Jazzercise, so I am used to jumping around without any pain, but for some reason, those jumping jacks and butt kicks kill my poor poor knees! I try to march, but my heart rate doesn’t get nearly as high as when I am jumping my ass off! Hahaha! Any suggestions?

    I am VERY happy to hear your fat is slowly melting away! That is inspiring and I will keep hope! I HATE the bulges and fat arms!