Sleepless and Menopausal
This is my first Menopause Maniac Blog; I hope it won’t be the last. I began the process of menopause over a year ago and the term “maniac” is probably the BEST word one would use to describe me.
I am 47 years old and I can’t honestly remember the last time I’ve had a good night’s sleep. It seems that if I go to sleep past 8pm, I’m doomed to a night of intermittent sleep. Amazing how just two years ago I was capable of following asleep at any given time and it was perfectly fine. Now, there is a whole ritual involved in my sleep patterns! My whole day revolves around having to be asleep by 8pm and doing everything in such a way that I won’t jeopardize my sleep schedule. To make matters worse, I’m a light sleeper. Every little noise, I hear it – be it the downstairs toilet running or the A/C kicking on. As for anyone who threatens my sleep, they are immediately put before a line of fire.
If I were married, I don’t see how I could share a bed with my husband; it would be the end of our marriage. My daughter who is now 17 has to obey the same sleep ritual as myself. She’s banished to her room at 7:45pm and any noise after that is inexcusable and punishable to the maximum degree. Of course we don’t see eye to eye on this subject. She doesn’t understand the difficulties of what I’m facing; this isn’t a choice. The worst part is that when she does need to use the restroom and she wakes me up I become a monster, a person neither she nor I recognize. At the time my reactions seem completely justifiable; aren’t they? I still don’t know. It seems that lack of sleep would be a reason to get angry at anyone. She just doesn’t understand how vital to my health sleep has truly become.